5 March 2010, Friday, 10.27pm

Yay, weekend!

I'm torn between buying an iPhone and an LG Lollipop.

Many people will tell me to get an iPhone because it has so many functions and it's cool and it's very useful. I agree totally. I think I will definitely use the internet a lot, because I tend to need/want to use the internet (a lot) when I'm outside.

But the LG Lollipop is just adorable. It only has very basic functions, but it looks cute overall.

The only reason that is driving me away from getting an iPhone is money. I don't think I can cough up that kind of money to pay for it. The LG Lollipop will cost me exactly half the amount in 24 months.

I have a discount voucher, but even that's not enough. I'll consider when I can get the phone FOC.

So yeah. It's Lollipop for now! I can live with that... for the next 2 years...

Was just surfing the net and I found out a1 is back~ I was a big fan during my secondary school days (ugh). Wasted a LOT of money buying magazines and regretted it. That's why I won't spend money on this sort of thing anymore. Just buying the albums is fine.

Here are 2 new songs that are mentioned on wiki:

Take You Home (performance starts at 1:18)

Don't Want to Lose You Again

Not bad.... hehe..

2 March 2010, Tuesday, 11.17pm

I like the current OP and ED songs for FMA: Brotherhood. The ED is by SCANDAL, titled Shunkan Sentimental. SCANDAL is an all-girl band. Really cool.

My boss found out about me wanting to drop a certain project, so he called me into his office to ask me my real reason. Apparently, the person who has been going around telling people about this told my boss too. When I told him my reasons, he was surprised because what I said and what he heard were two different things.

DUH. Because someone made up stories.

Everything's supposedly settled now with that person having a chat with me to clear things up. But nope. Nothing's cleared up. I'm more sian about work now than ever.

I know I can't choose who I work with. I can't choose my projects. Sometimes I get videos that are 'prestigious' and will be seen by many people. And sometimes I'll get the low-budget job that people will only watch once. That's fine.

So I realized, during the conversation I had with that person, that Singapore will snow before my problem is solved. No matter how many high-end projects you dangle in front of me, I'll still give you that sian face.

So there's no point fighting against it. There's no point complaining about it (although that does help to relieve some stress). But because I'm already feeling so miserable working with that person, I'm going to employ some tactics to help myself...

First, I will keep my mouth shut. No more proactiveness when working with her. She's so used to me asking all the questions that she doesn't bother to give me instructions about the edits anymore. And by the time I find out there were even instructions in the first place, it's too late. It's time she does something at all.

Second, no more crying in the office (and it only happened once). Everybody is misinterpreting my circumstances. They take away the big jobs from me to give me a 'break'. However, the only time I have 'breaks' is when I'm not working with her, no matter how busy I am. Period.

Third, I will not have anymore 'chats' or 'conversations' with her. I was naive to think that she could be a nice person, so whenever she was nice to me, I'd be nice to her. My colleagues say I'm the only one dumb enough to believe her. So now, no matter how nice she is in front of me, or when she claims credit for helping me get a pay raise, etc, I... will.... IGNORE. :P

Fourth, I will quit... soon... just like many others before me who quit because they can't work with her. So what if I'm getting another big project? Any opportunity to work with her again is like asking me to gouge out my eyes. Torture. I think I lasted pretty long for someone who wanted to quit on her first day because of that same person.

I wonder if I'll be dead tomorrow. She told me to do something and I forgot... She must be waiting by her computer for the file to reach her............ I didn't forget on purpose!

Ah... look at the time~ Sleep!

1 March 2010, Monday, 11.41pm

Editing in the conference room with Airina and Michell sitting behind me is nice. The place is quite cozy, especially since it's cluttered with some of our upstairs junk. I'm also using Pingnan's chair, which is very comfortable :D. In 2-3 weeks, they'll be moving back up, and I'll be all alone...

These few weeks (since after CNY) have been pretty dramatic. I've been hearing a lot of preposterous things and can't help but feel angry. 怒, you know. I can treat the first time as a misunderstanding since she didn't know the whole story. But this time it's really ridiculous.

[I wrote a very detailed 'story', but I think I shouldn't post it...]

The outline is, someone has been putting words in my mouth, and going around telling people about what 'I said'. It's not good for me because my colleagues are going to think bad about me based on what that person is saying about me. The crazy thing is, in front of me, she acts all nice and understanding. But when I'm not around, she complains about the things I said, which was actually made up by her. Also, some of my colleagues know I don't say those sort of stuff, so what makes her think nobody can see through her lies??

I think someone's dementia came early... I don't understand her at all.

27 February 2010, Saturday, 1.27am

This is the longest February ever! It feels like it, anyway.

Today (Friday) was full of mishaps and malfunctions in the office - just when I have two videos to rush out.

Long story short, there was a lot of moving (we're renovating upstairs). Because of that, I lost my harddrives (>.<) and I had to re-setup my computer in my new edit suite~ Then at night, Glenn and I stayed back to finish up an edit. Glenn was going to send the DVDs to the client's home after we were done. But while burning the last DVD, the power tripped. That was around 11.15pm.

It wasn't just our office that kena. The coffee shop and bar next door were having problems. Some of their customers were eating in darkness, and then by candlelight. So Glenn called Jay down, and Jay said he'll continue our work for us tomorrow morning, so we could go home for the day. The end.

It was interesting.

It's time to change my phone. So my two choices were the Nokia E63 and the LG Lollipop GD580 because they cost the same. The Lollipop looks really good - awesome illustration-style graphics, and very colourful. But I'm not sure if I could get used to another phone brand besides Nokia. I searched for the phone on youtube (after reading some reviews), and I found the MV by Big Bang and 2NE1. This MV was from last year May.

The song was annoying at first, but it grew on me toward the end. And now I can't get it out of my head...

But I think I'm going with the E63. Just coz it's Nokia. The lousy thing is the camera has only 2 megapixels...

Ah... I'm very tired now... Shall turn in... Haven't been sleeping well for a while now. Hope I don't keep waking up..... zZzZz...

20 February 2010, Saturday, 1.01am

Yay, it's the weekend. This week has been happier a bit. Michell keeps telling me things in the morning that really pep me up. Then there's so much joking during the rest of the day.

I have lesser work to do now because some projects are on hold (no response on client's side). Nothing is ever really finished. I'll get to edit a TVC in March/April, so at least I won't resign until after that. Not sure about quitting now, actually. The feeling to leave is still there, but I don't think I can leave now. So I'm putting it off.

Today we had our CNY lunch at Grand Shanghai. And I've discovered that I'm putting on weight because of my colleagues. One don't eat meat. Another don't eat vegetables. A handful of them don't eat shark's fin and sea cucumber. So I eat them all! It's quite nice sitting next to them. Haha~ But because of eating so much, I was the slowest... again...

The 8-course meal was mainly veggies. We couldn't have any pork at all because we have 3 Muslim colleagues. We had duck and pork and abalone, which is fine by me too. We had two veggie dishes (they were good, actually) and the dimsum at the end was filled with veggies also, much to Michell's dismay. Yann loves veggies but she didn't have enough space to eat everything. I think I had three bowls of shark's fin.

And I finished all my food. Dunno good thing or not. I think I was the only girl who ate everything. Oh, no, wait. I gave one wasabi prawn to Airina, since she liked it very much, and I don't like wasabi.

Lunch was good, better than last year's, in my opinion. But Airina was hoping to eat ginseng chicken which we had last year.

Anyway, I read in the papers that SNSD has a new single, Oh!, so I went to check it out. The video below is not the MV. This is the dance version (some rehearsal), and I think it's a lot more interesting. It's really amazing how someone can choreograph steps for the 9 girls so they move around seamlessly, and not everybody does the same steps.

I know I'm a bit late, but I only started listening to SuJu's Sorry Sorry. Haha... I understand now how addictive it is, and I like that guy's voice; the one that sang in the bridge.

I went to google. I think his name is Yesung. Not easy looking through so many names and faces... Thirteen of them, yes? But I can only count either 11 or 12 in the MV. Correct anot ah...

17 February 2010, Wednesday, 1.25am

I have been blogging; just not uploading. I deleted one post because I wrote it when I was very upset and I said a lot of mean things about a colleague. I still feel the same about it, but I think it's best I don't have it posted.

It's Wednesday. Have to go to work later. It's been a very restful CNY. But I'm not so thrilled about the shorter work week. Now I know how Glenn felt when he said he got the Monday Blues on a Thursday. I wonder if it's time to move on...

I'm really thinking about going into printing. Find a job somewhere in Sunshine Plaza or Peace Center. Learn printing stuff. Work hours are very much fixed, too. That means I can have more time working on my crafts at home.

Over CNY, I've come up with a list (even then, it's not finalized) of things I want to make and sell online. I've started making them already. Just one of each item. So whichever sells first (somebody pls buy my stuff!), I'll make another one to replace it. If something is in demand, then I'll start making things in bulk (as in, like, 5 pieces).

Anyway, it's late. I should be asleep. But I've been staying up pretty late over the weekend. Then taking late afternoon naps (I wake up at dinner time).

Yesterday I watched this new programme featuring SHINee. It's called Hello Baby. The previous season featured SNSD. They had to become 'Moms' and look after a baby for dunno-how-long. So, the funny thing with letting SHINee being on this show is they're still kids themselves. At first they thought they were the ones who were going to be looked after.

VERY draggy show, but it's hilarious. Really see a new side to all the members. Minho, this time, seems to be super talkative, and he's such a grownup. If I didn't know better, I'd think the boy is his son! Seriously... He must have a secret child somewhere to have this much chemistry with a kid... >.<

This part of the first episode has them showing their methods of pacifying a crying baby. Key is so funny lah! There is no end to his vanity.

Jonghyun: I told you. If he cries, I'll lock him up.
Minho: *Grabs JH's collar* If you keep doing this, we'll never see the baby.
Jonghyun: Sorry~

JH may be the joker, but everybody keeps making fun of his height. He's the shortest in the group, I think. And I like the way they bullied Taemin into sweeping the snow.

Can't wait for the other episodes to be up soon! Sorry for all the fangirlish comments.

Okay. Yawning already. Means it's time for bed. 안녕~

13 February 2010, Saturday, 12.43am

Happy Lunar New Year in advance!

Today (Friday) was full of ups and downs. Or rather, this whole week was. I still stayed back late for half the week.

Airina mentioned that friends are like iPhone applications. (There was a discussion between pro- and anti-iPhone users over lunch one day.) So Julius started describing all of us as applications in relation to work.

He said he was the application with the most effects but never did anything (we're glad he's aware of this). Airina was the app that took up a lot of space (he was poking fun at her weight). I was a 20cent app that did everything. And one of the producers was the app that kept having annoying pop-ups, and you couldn't delete it because it came with the phone.

Hilarious.

It's time to downgrade my phone plan. And just nice my phone died, so now I can't trade it in or sell it. I feel miserable because I have been taking good care of it for the past 2 years and it failed on me just one month before I can sell it off for a good price.

And I can't afford an iPhone.

I broke down today (Friday). I was feeling very emo and was on the verge of tears until my colleague made a stupid comment (which didn't relate to work at all) and I just started crying my eyes out. It shocked some people, I guess, especially my bosses.

Yes......... Pingnan saw me......... so paiseh.......

He asked Yann why I was crying and she told him it's because we didn't get half day off today (in light of CNY). I laughed at that joke, btw.

I couldn't stop crying. And I was so worried about the client session later on because if there was any sharp comment about the edit, I might burst out in tears. Michell said it was a good idea so they wouldn't stay so long. The funny thing was, the project wasn't even mine. I was just sitting in for a colleague who was on leave, and all I had to do was press play and pause on the computer.

While my other colleagues treated me to salad youtiao to cheer me up, my bosses called Yann upstairs to ask her why I cried. After that, Jay told me to take the rest of the day off to relax, and he'll take over whatever jobs I have on hand.

The older producer wasn't too pleased when I hadn't finish my work. Like, duh. I was in an edit session for 2 hours. For once I was so grateful for it because the phone rang many times.

Anyway, I left work at 5pm, and I had time to do some crafts at home.

I feel very tired still, and I know I should be asleep now, resting. But I haven't cried enough. I'm still feeling very emo. So I'm going to go away now and cry... really... I'll feel better after that...